Slowing Down

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I've been thinking about my love life lately. How I am "lesbian" and everything.
Honestly, I don't think I'm lesbian. I think it's a phase I'm going through.
I'm still young, and I feel I actually shouldn't be a sexuality if I'm not really sure of it. I don't exactly know my sexuality. I definitely have loved girls over the years, even some on the internet. I was with Izzy for a while, but there have been other girls on here that I've kind of had something for. But I'm trying not to get too carried away, because I don't want to end up like this girl named Taylor at my school (Not my friend Taylor that I always talk about). But she is younger than I am and she's had six boyfriends. It really irritates me.
So for a while, I don't want a girlfriend/boyfriend. Because I don't know how I feel about true love right now.. It just kind of bothers me to think about it.
But not like I didn't love Izzy. I did, but now I think about it and.. I just don't know.
I'm officially not lesbian, I don't want a girlfriend. I feel too young. I don't wanna go through this. I think it's just what I've been going through lately..
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This was actually partially why I broke up with FK. Even though I know I was ready, I couldn't help feel too young. You know the saying "Love has no boundaries", well it sort of does. If you love someone, and feel ready to commit, but you still feel unsure of yourself.

I like how you want to slow down. I slowed down two months ago. And I now, and forever regret it. I realize how bad it effected my once loved ones, and how it effected me. Badly...

But now I realized that I think I had to slow down. Or I would have at least lead myself to believe I'm capable of everything, or I would one day lead myself to demise. That's why I asked my mom "Can I walk home from school and carry a pole?"